Why do we love? A
question, that I asked myself when I was but a child. At one point
in my early teenage years I thought I had answered, but then I
discovered the true nature behind it....Then decided I didn't need
such a thing in my life. Of course, we have the capability of
cherishing friends, family and even strangers at a certain point.
However the concept of 'love' that is displayed in media and hold so
highly in our society... It's a term that solely belongs in fairy
tales and works of fiction.
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| Chain of Memories |
Love, is nothing more
than a term we use to hide the true dark desires of our human nature.
Because we think ourselves to be better than animals; thus we needed
a term that would seem acceptable withing our standards and yet
allow us to go beyond our reproductive needs without restriction nor
boundary.
When I think of the past
and how naive I used to be, thinking those fairy tales, those ideals
to be real and even more....To think I had actually achieved them. Is
not a surprise that I, like many, ended up discovering how the world
actually worked. Furthermore I realized that 'bad experience' I had,
was not an exception...It wasn't some kind of divine punishment, in
reality it was the norm. Statistically speaking, it was one more of
the many and event that despise how much it might have hurt...It
was as normal as car accident or a person being robbed, but unlike
the latter...What happened to me was as meaningless and irrelevant
that I just decided to forget it and continue with my life.
Or at least that's what I tried so hard
for myself to believe....Since I met him, since the first time I saw
him, something bothered me. Every time I see him a stinging pain
arise from deep down my chest, like if a bindweed full of thorns
would constrain my heart and every beat would press the thorns even
deeper. Despise that, here in this irrational world where logic and
sense doesn't seem to work. A place that defies common sense
itself....I think, I might be able to believe in love once more.
It's has been around five minutes
since he decided to start this childish game, hugging me from behind.
Tightly holding me with his arms and despise my threats, despise how
hard I yelled or how much I struggled...He just won't let go of me. I
sigh, “Would you please just let me go?” I say already tired of
trying to get free of his grip, I really doubt he would just let me
go that easily. At the moment I can't really think of something else
to say, but he surprisingly takes his arms off me saying with a
cheerful tone. “Sure Sophie, by the way there is something I been
wanting to te---”
-BUMP‼-
“Why didn't you let me
go sooner idiot!!” I yell at him right after my fist smash his
head. At first, he just stood there with a smile on his face,
laughing like an immature child who just accomplished a stupid
prank....But then he looked directly into my eyes, a more serious
expression on his face.. Almost as if he was trying to comfort me.
Slowly he started to caress my face saying. “Why did it took you so
long to say please?” I shoved his hand away and turned around, not
because the caressing bothered me...Well it might have bother me just
a little, b-but it's his fault! Only a dunce like him would do such
childish things a-and then act...So sweet.
“Ahem, whatever you wanted to tell me
it better be important. We already wasted enough time with silly
games and I need to get back as soon as possible.” I say trying to
regain my composure , I can't possibly show him any sign of weakness
or who knows what he would do next... “Actually Sophie it's about
that, I seriously doubt we can ask any passerby and be like 'Oh
hello, you wouldn't happen to know how to travel between realities
would you?'
That would probably gain us a ticket
straight to the nearest mental health institution.” “ Wait,
before I even try to analyze what you just said...What did you mean
by 'realities'?”
He looked at me confused, almost as if
what I just asked was a dumb question. His confused face soon faded
and a mockery laugh replaced it, but before I could get close enough
to punch him once more he answers teasing me. “ Geez Sophie”
He giggles, petting me in the head. “For someone that reads
quantum physics and mystery novels in her spare time, you really are
shortsighted.” Huh...? Me, shortsighted . How does he dare!!!
“ First, I will inform you that I
have made several essays on the most complex of topics in the field
of quantum physics,such as the string theory, and have been praised
by professors of the most prestigious universities. Second I don't
know what does a stupid dream have to do with the activities I do on
my leisure time nor how ignoring the inner working of this
surrealistic dream can possible make me a shortsighted individual!”
He still looks at me with
that mockery expression of his, similar do that of the principal
whenever she believes she knows something I don't. Though unlike
hers... His is not subtle in the slightest, almost to the point of
bursting in laughter. “Sophie..” He start saying trying to get as
serious as he possible can.
“I thought you would
have figured it out a long time ago...This is not a dream, silly.”
Of course I realized from the very beginning this wasn't a normal
dream, but I will let him think he is smarter just so I can crush
him after hearing the pathetic conclusions he thinks I haven't
notice already.
“Well if you are that
smart, care to enlighten me?” I reply. If
there is anything I'm glad I learned from Alice, is how much men
like to think they are in control.. That and to avoid stores during
clothing discount sales in a mall. But I digressed. “ D'aww you
are adorable when you are being sarcastic Sophie.” He says
completely ignoring all type of personal space definitions as he
cuddles me without any sort of warning, I try to push him aside.
Every time he gets close to me I loose my cool and can't think
clearly, to think I would act this weak by a mere hug.
“W-whatever...”
Though the cuddling
didn't last for long...(Sadly)
He holds my hand and says. “ But why don't we continue this
conversation in that coffee shop over there.” He points to a fancy
looking coffee shop across the street we were walking on, it doesn't
look like the type of place someone like him would visit...But
another cup of tea would definitely help me understand whatever
gibberish he will tell me.
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“So that's your
explanation?” She says taking a sip of her tea, “I find
it....Hard to believe.” Looking straight at me with her piercing
eyes, “ Are you certain that is exactly what happened?” Putting
down her cup of tea on the table, “I know Sophie can become
obsessive over certain matters,” crossing her legs, “However
pushing herself to the point of passing out at school sounds unlike
her at all.”
Sophie's mom says... Ugh
every time I have to talk with her is such a nightmare, not even
talking with the old hag and that beast of the vice-principal was
this stressful. Poor Sammy is already petrified in terror, I just
hope she doesn't say anything stupid.
“I-I know Mrs.
Knightley, Sophie wouldn't usually act so recklessly, but she has
been under a lot of stress lately and all that has been building up
inside her.” I reply trying to keep my voice from cutting short,
come on Alice just put on your best smile and try not to blow this
up; for Sophie's sake!
“Humm...” she gaze at
us once more, “Indeed, Natalie told me she was acting rather odd
this morning,” She picks up her cup of tea once more, “ Very
well,” taking a sip again, “ I will ask her directly; I also have
concerns regarding this Cox person,” she stands up and walks
directly towards us, “You are welcome to stay the night with us
today,” petting both of us in the head, “ Sophie will be happy to
see you girls when she wakes up.” She walks away, but stops for a
moment to say one last thing. “ But girls, never forget that a
mother always knows.” Finally....I thought that would never end,
might not have gone as smoothly as I wanted, but still pretty good; I
will make sure Sophie buys me an entire new wardrobe for this!
“Hey Sammy.... Sammy!!”
I have to shake up Sammy a bit before she responses. “Uh-Ah,
A-Alice?”
Poor Sammy can't stop
shaking, Sophie's mom has that effect on almost everyone. “You can
relax now, she is gone.” I give her a little hug before standing
up and stretching, “Well...It looks like we will spend the night
here, so we better get ready for the night~” Sammy takes a deep
breath and finally stands up. “ Do you think...Miss Sophie will be
ok?” I sigh, “ I'm not sure, but for the time being all we can
do is try to help her the best we can.”
I know I'm not the best
when it comes to thinking, but if there is something I know how to do
is...Deceiving people, fortunately that jerk Cox didn't remember
what happened after Sophie passed out. Not like I wouldn't be able to
shut his mouth one way...Or another. Still I have already
convinced Sophie's major threats, and as long as we stick to the
plan she shouldn't get in serious troubles.
“Alice...” Sammy
looks at me with huge puppy like eyes, “Why do you think Miss
Sophie did that... I know Cox is a bad person, but...” Holding her
hands I reply to her. “ Let's just say, she really can't stand
guys getting too close to her.” And not just guys....Since that
day no one has been able to reach her, “But forget that now silly,
we need to get the snacks ready for the slumber party!!” “Are we
having a slumber party?”
“ Of course we are! And
we will even get some of your favorite scary movies~” “B-But
Alice I don't like...Scary movies.” I grab her hand and we walk to
the kitchen, at least that will keep Sammy distracted. I don't want
her to be worried....Sophie, whatever is happening in that huge head
of yours you better know that...You got friends you can count on.
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I'm not sure what
surprise me more, the fact that he actually expect me to believe that
pseudo theory he just came up with or the fact that it actually
makes sense...”To summarize, this place is part of some type of
parallel universe that is formed and shaped after our own
subconscious minds and that somehow happens
every time we are in an unconscious state.” Finishing my tea and
taking a deep breath, honestly there is not enough tea in this world
or in any world that would help me assimilate this bogus theory.
“Not necessarily, but
yeah that's one way to put it. Though I can't really explain how
everything works in further detail.” Having another bite at the
fifth chocolate ice cream he had ordered
so far, although he seems like a childish dunce at first...He is
capable of actually using his brain and the evidence he provided was
solid enough, poorly explained, but solid
nonetheless. Regardless there is yet one thing I would like to be
answered...
“Is it really necessary
for you to be sitting next to me?” He cleans his mouth with a
napkin, actually thinking before answering me for once he replies.
“It's not really necessary, but how else I'm supposed to cuddle
with you if I can't even reach you?” I sight, I should have known
he would say something so dumb like that. Although I suppose
is....N-not really a bad idea, there are some studies that shown that
type of interaction help relieve stress and other negative symptoms.
“Yup that's true
Sophie” Ugh...I completely forgot about it, “ Being able to heard
what I think has to be illegal even in a parallel universe!” I
can't believe I just said that...“Well when you have two minds
merging together to form a whole new reality, that kind of things
tend to happen Sophie.”
Well I suppose is not
that bad, being able to get whatever we wish...Able to visit whatever
place I want or even create a whole new one from scratch, limited
only by imagination. It's just like writing a book, but one that I
can experience first hand. “You're such a nerd Sophie,” he
giggles as he pokes my cheek with his index finger, “ You really
like book don't y--”
-BUMP‼-
“Ow...My ice cream.”
“ We need to set some rules with this whole,
'mind reading' capability. You can't be able to hear what I think at
all times! It's a violation of privacy.” I say, cleaning my fist
off from the splatters of chocolate ice cream, besides I really
don't want him to heard any type of.....Embarrassing information.
“It's not like I can cover my minds ears or something Sophie....”
I glare at him as he finish his reply, getting my fist ready to
strike again. “Fine fine...I will see what I can do about it.”
Finally some improvement,
there is definitely always a way to tame a man...“Nup, I just don't
want you to spill any other of my ice creams....Er, I mean...I
definitely didn't hear that he-he.”
-BUMP‼-
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Ok then, let see what to
pick~ Some popcorn, chips, chocolates....Uuuh there is some ice
cream too. “Alice...” Let's see we will need some drinks too.
Jeez, so much tea and not a single drop of
cola or juice....Maybe I can sneak up some wine~ “Alice!!” Uh,
I haven't notice Sammy trying to talk with me; well it's kinda hard
to hear her if she yells as loud as a granny's whisper. “What is
it Sammy can't you see I'm filling us up for tonight?”
Sammy looks at me with
a somewhat blushing face, “I don't...Think we should be taking so
much food.” Dang, how can someone that looks so tough be such a
cutie. “ Chill Sammy, Sophie's mom said we can make ourselves at
home so~o that's what we will do; besides
I doubt they mind.” Suddenly I felt a little thing tackling and
holding my leg, then a soft adorable voice came out saying. “Are
you guys staying over tonight?”
Natalie, Sophie's little
sister was there holding my leg and looking at me with her adorable,
cute green eyes. “ Hey kid.” I said as I kneel and hugged her,
“ Yeah, me and Sammy are having a Slumber party in your sister's
room; want to join us?” Her eyes opened, a huge smile formed on
her face; that face only a child can get whenever it's exited about
something.
“Yes! I would love to.”
D'awww, though even if she is adorable....That little girl is as
fearsome as her mother. “Oh so drinking milk does actually make
them grow bigger..My sister say it was a myth, but yours have grown a
bunch since the last time I saw them Sam!”
Sammy, who was drinking
some milk; made the serious mistake of changing into her P.J. That
consisted only on a tank top and some pants and of course we will
tease her accordingly~
“ Oh, that's right
Sammy...Now that I notice, you have grown quite a bit.”
Sammy almost choking,
spills all the milk over her; blushing as she tries to cover her
chest with her arms says. “ T-That's not true, I-I'm still the same
size!” Natalie just look at me with a mischievous smile, walking
towards Sammy as she says. “ Oh are you sure? I'm really think they
have grown, maybe if I touch them I will be able to tell better!”
Poor Sammy's face is so red, but no one can say no to Natalie's
adorable face, in any case I needed a good laugh after all that
happened today~
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Shivers run down my
spine, he holds my hand and lays his head on my shoulder as he says.
“Something wrong Sophie?” Pushing him away I reply, “No...I
suddenly had the feeling something bad would happen to one of my
friends.” He smiles, this time making my head rest on his chest;
comforting me as he says. “Don't worry, they are fine. Your friends
and your little sister are having a slumber party at your house.”
He said with such confidence, almost about to forget the whole matter
and enjoy the odd comfort I had as I lay my head on his chest, but
what he just said....How? Is he joking or is he actually....Being
serious?!?
“How do you know what
they are doing and for that matter how do you know I have a younger
sister?”
He look up for a moment,
then he replays with the most oblivious tone I have ever heard. “Eh,
I have my ways~” Obviously I'm not satisfied with that answer,
although I'm too comfortable to be bother with the details for now.
“Hey Sophie,” he
suddenly says with an excited tone on his voice, “Did you notice
there were white roses in our table?” ….Those, darned flowers!! I
was actually enjoying myself. “Could...You throw them away, I hate
those flowers.” I turn around, facing the opposite direction; he
reaches for the vase containing the flowers, holding one of the roses
in his hand.
He looks at me, smiling
he says. “ You know...” leaving the rose back in the vase,
caressing my face he continues, “Once I heard the story of a really
beautiful flower, praised and loved by everyone on the village. She
was so beautiful that people from all over the country would come
just to see it's beauty, the flower loved the attention and she
enjoyed being praised every day by so much people.”
“But one day, he met
someone. A really handsome and wealthy gentleman came to see the
flower; the flower fell in love with the gentlemen the moment she saw
him, thinking he was the perfect one. The only one truly worthy of
her beauty, and so the flower and this gentlemen lived happy for a
few years.
In the beginning
everything seemed perfect, he would take good care of the beautiful
flower; however as time passed the gentlemen met a lady and soon he
forgot about the poor flower.”
“Heartbroken, she
decided that no one ever would be worthy of her again and to keep
anyone from ever hurting her; she grew thorns. The people of the
village still praised her beauty, but as time passed the thorns she
initially grew to protect herself, grew so much that finally covered
her up. Trapped behind a wall of thorns, once the beautiful flower
that was praised and attracted so much attention was forgotten.”
“Spending the rest of
her days alone, with just a fading sunshine and thousands of thorns
as her only companions; until one day....The wall of thorns
protecting her started to move, noises coming form the other side;
she was scared. Not knowing what sort of creature would appear, but
mostly afraid of what it will do to her.”
“As the final wall of
thorns that was covering her was taken down, she could felt the warm
touch of sunshine. A warm that she had almost no memory off, it had
been so many years since she felt it. Standing right in front of him
, a young man covered in scratches, cuts and bruises; slowly he
walked towards her. His bleeding hands gently picking her from the
ground, he smiled walking all the way back.”
“The flower didn't knew
what to do. She was afraid, afraid of being hurt again; so all she
could do was growing more and more thorns, but the young man still
hold her with the same delicacy as he used to pick her up; despise
the sharp thorns. As they finally stepped outside the thousands of
bindweed that were surrounding the flower, a young lady was waiting.”
“He walked towards her,
excited he showed her the flower as he said, 'I told you, I would
find a flower that was as beautiful as you.' That flower Sophie, was
a white rose.”
I giggle, “That...Was
so cheesy.” tears running down my face, I had forgotten the last
time I cried. He cleans my tears with a napkin, holding me tightly
while looking at me with a smile on his face. Truly idiotic,
completely oblivious to anything but the person who is in front of
him. “Would...You have gone, for that flower?” I ask, looking at
him directly into his eyes with a serious voice despise my blushing
face. “Sophie, ” he giggles, “I already did.”
As he said that I felt
some type of relief, I can't really explain why. But his answer as
corny as it might have been...Made me happy, closing my eyes we just
kept like that for a few minutes. At that moment I really didn't
cared what would the waitress say nor any other costumer. In fact,
for the first time ever; I didn't have any single worry.
When I opened my eyes
again, I was laying on my bed. 7 P.M. I could read on my alarm
clock, right thru my window; a bright full moon was shining. Standing
right next to my bed over a piece of furniture, a vase full
of.....White roses. I giggle, the moon's light making them glow with
a silver tone.
They....Actually look
pretty.
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